I need to get out of here...

Although I have been trying hard to make things improved, I kind of noticed that something was wrong.

I started out writing on this blog almost three years ago. And at that time, most of my entries are written in English, but recently I hardly write anything here. And I have written tons of entries in my another blog.

I have almost been lost my way. I was wrong. I gotta write something here.

Yeah, right. I'm not writing anything meaningful up here. I'm just kind of grumbling...

Fuzzy Logic

People can't always behave logically, but when it comes to discussing a matter, I want to be logical and I want the other to be logical. But, seems like it will be very difficult for some people...

Feel in the dumps b/c I am dissapointed by myself.

Recently, I often hate myself. I feel that I have to go beyond what I can do right now. But, I often end up doing my routine.

"For now," which is a very attractive and scary phrase.

I'm trying to do something. But, I don't. Why? Because I don't have enough time. Then, I'm doing something else. And I'm grumbling... I think I'm so lame.

Maybe all I have to do is forget the phrase "for now." Then, I should try to work on what I really want to do.

Summer Vacation

Most Japanese business people are taking their vacations next week. But, I'm not. I don't know if it is good. If I take a vacation, I want to go abroad. But, airplane tickets during the holiday season are kind of pricey.

Why I write

I just don't like the summer in Tokyo. It's too muggy, which often irritates me and helps me lose motivation to anything. I mean "anything," not "something." I can't do anything I really want to do or I've got to do.

Well, I know. You may have this golden question in your head. You would say, "So, why are you writing this terrible entry in poor English, outrageous2007?" Right. Your question is so sagacious that I don't think I have the right to answer it. All I can say now is I'm pretty much absent-minded and I don't know what to write and what I'm writing, much less why I'm writing.

Anyway, let me tell you a little bit about writing. Although I can't speak English as fluently as most of returnees and those who have lived in the states or other English speaking countries for many years, writing English is a pain (Maybe, reading my terrible English might be a pain for you, my friend). It's neither because I have a great command of the English language or because I can write good English. It's just because writing is part of my life, which nobody can eliminate from me.

Wherever I am, whoever is around me, no matter what language I use, I will write. I don't know why I'm writing or what is making me do so. I write something. That's it.

kind of happy

I have been away from this blog for a long time for some reason. But, today I just felt like writing something here.

Today I had one thing that pleased me. I talked with a middle-aged woman studying English. She was a very good English learner, so I told her what I really believe about English language learning. As I talked with her, I came to realize that the way I'm trying to reach was not wrong. Although it's not easy to make ends meet right now, I think everything will be fine in the near future.

The thought of it made me think that I have got to start out doing something different in my daily life. Although I don't know what it will be, I'll find it out soon and start doing it.

Probably this entry is a little strange and most of the people reading this do not understand what is going on in my head. But, anyway I'm kind of happy, not very very happy, just a little.

Staycation

The Golden Week started out for some people. However, as for me, I have more two days to wait. Anyway, that's not a big deal. I have got little money, and I need to stay home. Therefore, it'll be just a staycation.

We didn't mean to go to the sea...

"We didn't mean to go to the sea" is the title of my favorite CD. I just used it because I really went to the sea with my old friend.

I don't remember why I went to the sea. Probably, the friend decided to do so, and I just followed. Although we were able to enjoy the scenery, we didn't have much time to be there. The place is far from where we live. It took more than 3 hours by train.

I'd like to have a more relaxed schedule next time I go on a trip to any place.

Do you give your partner a hug?

Today, I met my best friend living in Kumamoto. He came to Tokyo to visit his mentor's funeral. I ate lunch with him at T.G.I. Friday, and we ordered the same pasta. Since I didn't feel anything wrong with the dish I had, he told me it tasted too strong.

He was flying back to Kumamoto today. I asked him if his wife would give him a hug. He just said, "No way." Of course, I was kidding. But, in the states it is not unusual for a husband to give a huge hug with his wife after two day's separation.

WBC

I've been away from this blog for a while. But, I should write more often from now on.

I watched WBC (World Baseball Classic). The Japanese team won, but I was surprised that the Chinese team was much stronger than I had expected. Although baseball is not popular in Europe, the Asian teams' level is definitely getting higher.

Driver's License

It has been a while since the last time I wrote on this blog.

Anyway, recently I had one happy thing. I got a Japanese driver's license. Although I had a US license a few years ago. I couldn't convert it into a Japanese one because several months had already passed since the day I came back to Japan.

Therefore, I had to work on getting a license from the beginning and it was very hard. Especially, the written test was very difficult. I had to retake the test three times.

Well, speaking of the written test, I remember failing the written test in the US. I took the Japanese version first. But, the translation was horrible and I had to imaginze how the original Englilsh version was written while taking the test. Well, I took the English version on the second time and I passed it very easily.